This was the…oddest con experience I’ve ever had. As far as just milling about & being an attendee, pretty good; friendshipping, stellar…& a f’ing whirlwind of feelz (along w/ having to go full #TeamBlackMom the entire time); panels (besides the ‘con sponsored one), went really well; staffing, f’ing nightmare, but not for anything obvious & just at the con. So, let’s break it down (& not make this as long as I usually do [failed miserably as usual ~.~])…
Suffered the whole day from sleep deprivation; had to basically skip work cause I couldn’t function; still didn’t get that much sleep since everyone & their Mom wanted to contact me that day. Incidentally, I’ve never dealt w/ so much pre-con drama before in my entire con life. Also, drove down to NJ to pick up a friend in NJ.
Rendezvoused with said friend (after spending the previous night at a friend’s house [btw, thanks for being such a gracious host); headed down to MD/National Harbor on what can be described as the best roadtrip I’ve ever been on w/ all the dankness & racist jokes ^.^ When we made it there, we took the best selfie evar & pretty much spent the rest of the day relax–lies, started the Katsu staff work grind ~.~ Also, couldn’t really sleep that night ’cause I didn’t have a bed…which was pretty much the whole weekend…lovely x.x
This is the day where, for the first time ever tbh, I was beyond emotionally spent. Besides it also being yet another day where my phone was blowing up as well as my acid reflux being at its worse (if you’ve never had acid reflux or don’t know what it’s like; imagine your esophagus feeling like it was literally on fire; it’s d*mn near impossible to concentrate & can easily put anyone in a terrible mood), I was really on edge b/c this was the day that for the umpteenth time I, to put it quite simply, was held back as my “baby” of what I usually handle w/ this con was kidnapped from me & I was expected to just stand there & let it happen b/c “I need the help/you aren’t always here”. I’ll get into that a little more later, but this day I was literally 2 seconds away from jumping ship to the other dept. I moonlight in. Needless to say, even tho I mellowed tf out, I’m still seething about this type of sh*t. Just waiting for the convo that will happen as far as strategizing for next year.
Besides the con sponsored one for a How-to panel for Katsu, all my panels did really well. I had fun w/ all of them, the audience was super engaged, & it was just an overall good experience. I would say my panel Sunday, State of the Anime Community: Past, Present, & Future, generated a great discussion & I thoroughly enjoyed it. Honestly, wished I left it at 90 minutes.
Sucks I wasn’t able to get my Sola-Ui top in time & that I missed the Saturday Type Moon shoot (trying not to be bitter but I am; of course it was due to staff related things ~.~), but otherwise had great experiences. I loved wearing Mondo, loved wearing Jonathan Joestar even more (real talk: love running into JoJo cosplayers, esp. when I’m also wearing JoJo stuff), Birdramon was fun (but unfortunate the tulle practically functioned as a duster DX), wore Tokiomi for all of 10 minutes (& of course I forgot his beard that I made at home X/), Sakura was actually hella fun (esp. since I had a Shinji to harass me ^.^;). All was good honestly. Just wished that, given the circumstances, I brought Li Shuwen vs. Tokiomi since I would have had no problem wearing that for long periods of time.
+Friendship (Ruins Lives)+
So, lots of drama things happening here & there. Lots of being #TeamMom in overdrive. Just lots of being further groomed into a ‘vault of secrets’ w/ the amount of things I’ve been told over this short period of time (& what I know in general). Quite frankly, getting wrapped up in other ppl.’s drama, which also generally answers the ques. “How do you even deal w/ xxx?”, is what was literally keeping me distracted from how annoyed I was w/ my present predicament in the division I staff that was building up all year. That’s how you deal w/ certain levels of friendship drama: use it to ignore your own problems >_> Lastly, my roommates were awesome, just the rooming situation was unfortunate. Honestly, if I can, gonna try to book my own room for next year since I know enough ppl going.
So, basically, a little bit after Katsu 2016, I pretty much became the main one working on a particular set of tasks. Fast forward till after I had a promotion to 2nd highest level in my division, a couple other promotions for other members, & basically post a particular process my division handles, now all of suddenly the other 2 higher ups can’t keep their hands off the stuff I usually work on, causing unnecessary confusion (like, who responded to what, etc.) & just work-hogging to a massive degree, one moreso than the other. So, basically, every problem I had goes back to this: I was the only one working on it, I had my sh*t together, pretty much kept everyone in the loop, aaannnnddd now I’m basically being pushed to the side & almost relegated to grunt work. Like, besides what I usually handle, I’m not doing all that much, so it literally puts me in a position where I have a title that means nothing & I’m practically not allowed to work on anything (or I have to fight them off when I do start working on anything if I want to have any hope of seeing it through to the end). This is totes a convo that’s gonna happen, b/c I’ve been at the point of ‘either leave me be to handle this or I’m out’ for a while now, it’s just a matter of how chill/not chill I’m gonna be during that convo, ’cause when you’re already at a point that you’re willing to leave, no reason to be extra on top of that >_>
So, had someone (that’s below me on the staff totem pole, mind you) basically decide that after the con is the perfect time to give me sh*t for a particular joke I was making all weekend (that of course everyone found funny except this loser), which was hilarious b/c they basically told on their self in the process. ‘Course dummy didn’t think they did anything wrong, pretty much lied about a complaint that only they know about, & was super unprofessional the whole time & practically solidified their self as being the psychotic drama queen of the division, but, hey, I guess it was totally worth the non-zing you made on me, right? …right?!
Like, as I said earlier, it’s been an interesting experience this year that was a whirlwind of feelz, rage, good times, & severe lack of eating (w/ semi severe amounts of drinking)…can’t wait for next year…probably ^.^;